Quiet Thursday morning...

Though they aren't tears of self-pity or of sudden emotional grip from such an inspiring piece of music... but of that realization of how horrible I must have been to the people around me came to me in full force.

I was so wrapped up within my own self, I lost tracks of all the close people around me, of their struggles, their needs for support, and even their happiness.

Solitude is something that I embrace... though with this solitude came an ignorance that seems disgusting now. For the past several years I repeated burdened my sister with occasional tantrum and breakdowns at how much I pity my own life, with its lack of true friendship and excitement. Now that I think about it, I'm the one to blame. I'm really sorry sister, for only venting my 'own' frustration, totally ignoring your emotional distress living alone far away from the family. I carried on with friendship and hid away my true self, only to complained later of how 'abandoned' I felt by not having enough attention and care, though truly have I cared enough for someone to receive the same kind of love back? I don't give but expect to receive all the time.

It's truly unhealthy to live a life knowing of only me, me and me.

Now is really a time to change.

P.S: For everyone that actually cares to read and follows my little blog, thank you very much.

Uhm, something has gotten into me, guess it was this urge to create these cute characters. I happen to have these Sculpey clays ready since last winter but never once touched them yet. So last night in between study sessions I decided to try doing something out of them, and the results can be viewed above, lol XD.

Some close-up shots:

That bear was a pain to make, but it was worth it :).

My mom is a fan of the male daikon figurine, haha XD. She said he looks like my 9th uncle, uhm yea...

As for me, I love the cucumber dude, hehe...

Ahhh, No-Face!!! I'm really in love with that character after watching Spirited Away.

While I was there, I made a new charm for my phone as well, a cookie and candy jar :).

... as in how time consuming it could be.

I finally got my 2 drawings for Printmaking printed. And yesterday has got to be one of the most exhausting school days for me ever for I spent freakin' 19 hours in school, working nonstop. Guess how many hours were spent on printing these babies? 13 hours all together :D (though I was printing with another friend, so we did together 20+ prints, and not 10, so that's why it took so long). Uh-huh... talk about the aftermath of procrastination, lol XD. Though to be honest, I didn't procrastinate all that much for Printmaking which is a class I love... but more like lithography is just so time-consuming. I'm glad my instructor really likes the prints, and he proposed that I continue on with lithography in which he thinks I have the potential to go farther, and have mezzotint as a side project. However, I'm just so grateful I got these done. The feeling of accomplishing and completing something is one of the most rewarding feelings ever. I came home at 3:30 am this morning in the cold rain after standing and working for freaking 18 hours straight and my feet just wanted to collapse but I felt totally peaceful. It was just wonderful, wonderful I tell yah.

I call this piece Flow. This is the final print, but I'm not happy with how it turned out... too dark and lots of details were lost T_T.

Now this is the drawing on the stone... See, this is how I want my prints to look like, but my lack of experience really ruined it.

Progress shots.

I can't get this song out of my head ^^. Lately, I'm pretty impressed with the Vietnamese music industry. Originality it does not have much, but you can tell they're trying hard and that alone gives me such good impression :).

Got one of my drawings for printmaking done today... It was fun, but time consuming like always. What I'm afraid of is how to get it printed as best as possible. Hm... Here's also the process of the drawing, lol. I was bored as you can see :).

One more to go :D!!! And the stone for this next drawing is huge, hahaha... exciting ^o^v...not hahaha. I have an idea, but it's still so fuzzy that's why this time it's gonna be a challenge filling up all the big space. It's not like I have to work at it in such a controlled manner like how I did for the above drawing... but still, there's expressive line work and there's sloppy line works, certainly it's the latter I tend to fall into when I go loose.

I learned how to make patterns as above in Illustrator and tried it right away and came up with this little digital drawing ^^. To view a larger version, just click on the text below. I'm sorry for the ugly watermark, but we are living in a time where stealing virtually has gotten so much easier, and even though this drawing is not a pretty one by any mean, I still want to protect what little I have, so yea.

My mind is so troubled, and doing this drawing took away the stress until I could think straight again. I'm about to make some important decision, and I don't want to be rash or immature in this matter *sighs*...